So not to sound completely self-pitying and probably not at all self-loathing, but I seriously suck turd. Wow, saying the word turd in my head made me feel a lot better. And saying word and turd together makes me feel even more better because they rhyme! Maybe I should take a break and watch some Spongebob. I’ve never been a religious Spongebob fan, I mean, I probably only watched it sometimes when it was on Saturday Disney. It’s weird how Saturday Disney was the Australian branch of Disney. I seriously love Disney and still would have loved to be a Disney kid. In fact yesterday, instead of doing my essay (…), I was watching clips of the Mickey Mouse Club. Seriously though, Justin was the biggest cutie ever showing us around his hometown Memphis! And Britney, holy moly was she so cute and adorable! So pretty too!! After she showed us how to eat crawfish I had a dream about eating them, looks so yum! And one of the older, unsuccessful Mouseketeers was saying how Britney was hot at eleven years old. She actually was… They were all so talented!
Anyway, so I failed. Well I predict I will fail. I missed the second deadline, so now I’m on negative twenty marks. This is detrimental. It weighs on my soul. After the HSC had finished, I literally felt to light and free, not a care in the world. So much more happy, like I had been when I was like twelve, so less cynical. I even wrote a blog post about it! I mean, I thought I might have changed for the sadder, but I had regained power! Anyway, now I feel like shit again. Everything is so out of hand! One thing led to another, and now everything I’ve had to hand in so far has been late. When I think about it, my first referencing tutorial participation assignment was late as well! I had to run to class, arrived half an hour late because fuck you Fisher Library staff.
So yes, I think I’m looking at getting around maybe thirty to forty percent for this psychology essay, including deducted marks. And that’s if I’m lucky. I mean, if I’m really unrealistic and ignorant, I would just say, I’ll get full marks, and end up with a distinction. But get real, me, you will never get full marks. That’s not even a harsh statement (lol), I’m pretty sure full marks is a rarity. I mean on actually important assessments. Or maybe it is actually just me. Anyway, my average has been seventy, so… I’m looking at getting a pass, or fail. Sigh pie.
I actually really want to buy some study drugs. Not sure what they’re called yet, but that can easily be googled. But then again, I have no income, so, yeah. I can’t even buy drugs. I’ve wondered recently whether my dad might condone my use of drugs if it were to help my studies. But realistically, he wouldn’t. He would say, you have to work hard. And I must! I wonder what extents it would take me to actually learn… Meh. Life is life. Wait, don’t be complacent! Well, I’m actually just thirsty.
I actually feel drunk. I slept for five hours last night and still didn’t finish the essay, and it’s only a thousand words!! Why, why?!?! Yeah, I saw an ad on television that said if you’re awake for more than seventeen hours a day, basically, you’re drunk (lol). So I’ve been trying to function and write an essay drunk. I wonder how many mistakes there are in this blog post… Should I not proof read it so you can count? Nah, that just disrupts the flow. Or maybe I will, as in I won’t proof read, I’ll decide late and let you know in the p.s. Now I’m thinking I mightn’t even remember to put that in. Oh fucking well.
I missed uni today, well skipped. So I think-oh my fucking god, I’ve actually skipped all my tutes this week and didn’t even fucking finish the essay!! THIS LIFE IS HOPELESS!!! But I will say, I did miss the first one by accident… Well, I’ll try to make it up tomorrow by going to all my lectures! I want to go to this interfaculty pub crawl, I mean it sounds fun, but it’s such a hassle thinking of how I’m going to get home, so I don’t think I’ll go… I’m so tired/drunk I’m just going to do what I don’t want to (insert sad face). That was it. That was what I didn’t want to do.
Oh life oh life oh life. Am I Squidworth? Is that even how you spell his name? I can’t be bothered to even google it. Google… I just want to lie on top of a cloud and be done with the world. I mean, I’d say uni, but then it kind of leaves my life pointless. I mean, dragging my lardy body around all day, eating, not even delicious eating, just junk or healthy shit around the house. Mehhhhhhhhhh.
I watched The Wanted’s new music video, it made me like the song more, especially the end where they’re singing the chorus with the…oh my god I don’t even remember what the thing that’s different from the chorus and verse is called! I’m getting dumber every moment I’m alive!! Or every moment I’m on the internet!! Is venting making me less intellectual?! Wow I seriously don’t remember. Anyway, the boom boom part. So I was thinking I’d write a ‘review’ of my fangirling of it, but then, yes, I realised I’m so not in that mood. All the feels would be underscored if not overpowered by cynical, blurgh-ness. Eugh. Eugggghhhhhh.
Also, a note on Selena Gomez’s new music video, amazing cinematography. The scenes were so incredibly beautiful and she herself was amazing and gorgeous. What would’ve made the video more interesting and a thousand times better is if there was an actual story line, and maybe seeing the guys face…
I’m outta hurrrr,
Just Another Woo Girl
Just Another Woo Girl
P.s. I will proof read. Also, I’m gonna take a break and try and cheer up with some SPONGEBOB SQUARE PANTS! Every time I laugh when I’m watching funny shows by myself I keep thinking of this thing I read which said: lonely people laugh a lot at things that aren’t that funny. But I think it’s funny…but what if it isn’t that funny and I’m really just a loner? (Lol). So foonzay.
P.p.s. Whilst proof reading I realised, it’s called the bridge!!! THERE’S STILL HOPE FOR ME YET!!