Oh hey there. It’s been a long time. I would love to write a post saying how much things have changed, how organised and amazing I’ve become, but that’s just not the case. However, although I’m not at a point in my life where I can say I am the best I can possibly be, I have actually improved a lot! Now, that is not saying I was awful before, because that would just be unnecessary negativity. I think it’s best to always think you can improve, but also to be happy with the way you are. Sometimes negativity in the present can be a great motivator, but really that’s unhealthy, because once you’ve reached your goals, you’ll think oh no, this isn’t enough. You can’t do things to make yourself happy if you aren’t already happy. You have to always be happy in the position you’re in, but not complacent. Why do I even bother explaining things like this, because I really can’t explain what I’m thinking properly, hence, why quotes are so popular.
Anyway, that was the most bland thing I’ve ever written. Moving on. I have a psychology test tomorrow, and to be honest, it should be quite easy. Except for the fact that I haven’t studied for it. There isn’t even that much content, literally only a few work sheets from four tutorials, but you know, I don’t really even have motivation. But I need to get motivated, right now! I can’t wait for this semester to be over. I don’t know what I’m going to do in the holidays, but I just know that all this study needs to end. I’ve actually been studying quite consistently this year so far. I’ve only handed in two things late I think. I just really need myself to know that I simply cannot afford to fail anything for the rest of my academic career, especially at my university, because I will surely get kicked out. But there’s something horrible, for my philosophy essay that is worth 50%, in which I half actually, probably 85% tried for, I literally got 53%. What the fuck is this shit. I mean this is arts, I should at least get 60!!! I mean are you kidding me. I also got 2 marks deducted after that for handing it in a day late which means I’m literally on the brink of failing this course, when I’ve handed everything in!!! THIS IS TERRIFYING AND ALSO MAKES ME SO ANGRY!!! First of all, my tutor is actually crap. Apparently she is good at logic type philosophy, but not the one she is being paid to tutor for. She literally has no opinions, doesn’t know about meta-philosophy, so what the hell is she doing as our tutor?! I cannot stand this. And to only scrape a pass is ridiculous!!! Even for Art History I got a higher mark, and probably failed some of the assessments since I knew jack-shit on it. And to be honest, that was my fault because I didn’t study enough, and my tutor was really great so I did learn a lot in class, so if it wasn’t for him I’d probably fail. But this tutorial is the worst ever and I do not gain anything from going to it. Well at least there’s not participation marks for it because I’ve missed so many. Hopefully I still make the cut-off…if there even is one.
So after this unexpected rant I’ll go back to looking over my tutorial notes I suppose. Good times. I’m a bit tired from doing nothing all day except edit some photos from Friday night’s party and make food. I tried to do gluten free brownie in a mug tonight, but I added too much salt so it wasn’t very tasty, so I threw it. Oh well. Nothing really compares to the gluten free funky fudge from WellCo, it’s the best. So chewy I can’t even handle it. Jokes, I can. Because I have the greatest sweet tooth of all time.
You know what fucking peeves me? Is like, don’t get back with your ex’s unless you’ve changed. And in this case, I don’t even care, just don’t do it, you fuck wit. Maybe it’s cool maybe it isn’t, just don’t. Okay now I’m getting frustrated inside. This is not good prep for studying. And I need to study. Really, the need is real. So, you’re a fuckwit and a little shit, and the next time I see you, I will smile, but inside I will be saying, “fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you…etc.”.
Just Another Woo Girl